Chloe Chronicles VII: Rejection Blues
by Lee Harrington
Originally appearing in Bark Magazine Issue #71, Sep/Oct 2012
All of my life, I have dreamed of
having at least two dogs, but always knew I would have to wait for the
right situation. For me, the “right situation” involved living in the
country rather than in New York City, in a house surrounded by lots of
land and with all the time in the world on my hands. Or at least, enough
time to train my second dog and help him adjust to his life with Chloe
and me (in our house in the country). I wanted to be able to take them
hiking and give them plenty of attention, engagement, exercise and so
forth. I figured that, with a second dog, my caretaking duties — meaning
my supervised duties, above and beyond the care my dogs always receive —
would amount to about four hours per day.
Why four hours, you ask? Because I wanted to adopt an English Setter mix--my most favorite type of hypo-dog.
--> You know how it is — we dog lovers can be partial to certain breeds
or types of dogs. Some of us love the cuteness and ease
of lapdogs; some of us admire the regal carriage of Afghan hounds, or
the calm strong presence of Shephards, or the goofy sweetness of pit
bulls. Some of us can’t resist the ultra-floppy ears of Bassett
Hounds, or the giant gentleness of the—ahem—Gentle Giants, or the
wiggly wags of Labs. The list goes on and on, and I am sorry if I
have left out your favorite breed or mix. And, oh, the glories of
mixed-breeds! Who can resist the myriad combos? I have a friend with
a short-legged, big headed lab/Bassett mix named Hagrid—the cutest
dog you’ve ever seen. Another friend has a Beagle/Setter mix—a
gorgeous orange, brown and white dog with a Beagle’s bugle-bray.
My own Chloe is some sort of Spaniel/Lab/Border Collie
amalgam, and I adopted her, in part, because of my Spaniel/Setter
fixation. I love
their beauty, their exuberance, their fondness for hikes and swims,
their silky fur, and they way they transform, inside the house, into
cuddly lap dogs—albeit 70 pound ones.
To me, the only thing better than having a bird dog as a
companion is to have two bird dogs. So the idea of adopting a second dog
was always on my mind.
In 2006, I finally left New York City and moved to the Catskill
Mountains full time. I had had Chloe for about a year at that point, and
we had enjoyed a rich life, spending part of our time in an apartment
in the city and the other part at a small cottage upstate. It was an
ideal situation in many ways, but it got to be exhausting. The commutes
and the changes and all that packing and backing-and-forthing was too
much, especially with a large dog in tow.
So I moved to that big house with lots of land I had always dreamed about. Finally, it was time to adopt my second dog.
I was very excited at the prospect, and I knew Chloe would be too.
We all know that dogs are pack animals and thus are happiest and most
comfortable when they are members of a
canine pack.
Chloe loved other dogs — she loved to play and romp and flirt — and she
also seemed to enjoy being a mother dog. I got a kick out of watching
her play with puppies at the dog park, wrangling them and letting them
crawl all over her, giving them playful but very gentle swats and nips.
It made me wonder if she had had puppies at some point in her young
life, before I adopted her. It made me wonder if she missed them.
Therefore, I decided I would adopt a puppy this time around, rather
than an adult. I had the time, after all. And I knew what raising and
training a puppy would entail. I felt fully prepared to adopt my Setter
pup. And so, I began my search on
Petfinder.com. Whereas I’d searched the Internet for several months before choosing
Chloe, the second-dog search took only a few weeks. I found a Setter
rescue group that I liked, and they were in the midst of arranging
adoptions for a litter of nine liver-and-white pups. Seven of them were
male, and I knew I wanted to adopt a male. I telephoned immediately, and
spoke with a kind and encouraging volunteer, who filled me in on the
adoption process. We spoke for about 45 minutes — about me, their group
and my potential dog — and by the end of the conversation, she told me
she’d send an application. (Apparently, this group will not even send
out applications until they speak to the candidates in person or on the
telephone.) “You sound like an ideal candidate,” the woman said.
I must confess that I also thought I was an ideal candidate to adopt
a dog. I’m not saying that I’m a perfect human specimen, or that I know
every last thing there is to know about dogs, but I do work for
Bark
magazine, for goodness sake,—the best dog magazine out there,
which means that for the past twelve years I have been reading,
editing, and reviewing (and yes, writing) articles and essays from
some of the top trainers, behaviorists, veterinarians, ethologists,
poets, and animal rescuers in the country. We who read
Bark are up to
date on the best and most effective training methods (positive
reinforcement/operant conditioning, of course), the latest studies on
canine behavior and psychology, the newest and best veterinary
treatments (holistic and allopathic) and even the latest treats,
toys, beds, gadgets, accessories and foods. And please don’t think
I’m bragging—if you are reading this column in
Bark magazine, that means you have access to all this knowledge, too.
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To further toot my “You Should Let Me
Adopt Your Setter” horn: I also spent years writing a series of
columns—and a subsequent memoir entitled Rex and the City—about
how I devoted just about every waking moment of my life to rescuing
and rehabilitating an abused hunting dog: a wonderful Spaniel mix
named Wallace. He was everything these setter rescue groups “warn”
you about: exuberant, energetic, high spirited (read: highs-strung),
vocal, stubborn, capable of fantastic athletic feats (i.e. leaping
tall fences in a single bound, etc). We used to joke that Wallace was
the equivalent of three dogs. So again, I felt I could handle a
Setter puppy.
I thought of Wallace, and of my near-perfect dog Chloe, as I filled out the rescue group's very long application:
• How many hours per day are you home? (Average, about 20.)
• Where will your dog sleep? (Wherever he damn well pleases — usually on the most comfortable bed in the house.)
• How much exercise will your dog get? And where? (Hours daily, at dog parks and on hiking trails.)
• What is your income? (Enough to keep the dogs, and myself, well
fed, comfortably housed, healthy, impeccably groomed, constantly
entertained, etc.)
• What will you feed your dog? (Bones and raw food and homemade meat/vegetable/supplement mixtures.)
• What sort of training methods will you use? (Clicker.)
• Do you have a fenced-in yard? (Um … kind of … but we have many acres of land in a low-population area with no cars.)
At this point I called the adoption coordinator again to express my concern about my lack of a
fenced-in yard. I was definitely worried about this sticking point. But the coordinator assured me that this group often made exceptions for “the
right candidates.”
Can you blame me if I thought I was a shoo-in? After my application
was approved (with flying colors, I might add), we arranged for a home
visit. One of the volunteers from the rescue group would come the
following Saturday to meet me and my dog and check out our digs.
Gleefully, I started to prepare — mentally and literally — for the
arrival of my new puppy. I bought cute little toys and a memory-foam
bed. I read up on puppy-specific training, and on the body language of
puppies and mother dogs/ female dogs. I even picked out a name: Trinley,
in honor of a Tibetan monk of whom I am particularly fond. (He said it
would be all right to name a dog after him.) “Trinley’s coming,” I’d say
to Chloe in a sing-song voice. “Your new little brother Trinley!” One
night, I even dreamed about him; in the dream, he snuggled and squirmed
in a way that seemed incredibly real. Trinley was so excited to be with
us and we were so excited to be with him. When I woke, I was convinced
that the dream was prophetic — that Trinley was meant to be my second
dog.
Yes, the thought sometimes crossed my mind that I would not be
approved, but those thoughts were fleeting. After all, I had adopted
Chloe without any trouble. Millions of dogs in this country needed
homes. Surely my offer to provide a home for an unwanted dog would be
granted.
My evaluator, whom we shall call Mr. Whitaker, arrived at my house on a sunny Saturday. An
older man, he was wearing khakis and a polo shirt of a distinctive color
that we in the know call “Nantucket Red.” He drove a silver Volvo with a
Connecticut license plate. A gorgeous Belton-type English
Setter sat in the back seat. The dog had one of those long names I can no longer
remember. “Constantine’s Westchester Amblefoot Toucan Pie” or some such
thing, with the call name “Took.”
“Took,” I repeated happily, and reached into the car window to pet him. “Would you like to come meet Chloe, Took?”
Mr. Whitaker seemed uncertain. “He doesn’t really play with other dogs.
I’m not sure I should let him out of the car.”
I must have looked at the man
perplexedly, because he added, “He’s a show dog.”
I didn’t know how to respond to that
statement. My dog is a mix with tainted blood?
-->Meanwhile, Chloe was running circles
around the car, dancing happily at the sight of another canine. I told Chloe to come sit quietly by me so that Mr. Whitaker could say hello. (And yes, I spoke to Chloe in a full sentence).
Chloe immediately ran to my right side
and sat, looking sweetly at Mr. Whitaker with a gently wagging tail.
“Wow,” he said. “I’ve never
seen such a thing. How did you do that? You got her to sit down and everything.”
“I clicker-trained her.”
“Never heard of that,” he said.
I kept my face blank and pleasant, but inside I was thinking: They sent
this man to evaluate my dog? Meanwhile. Took began to bark and scratch at the car window, trying to wedge his body through the small crack.
-->“Well, I suppose I could take him out,” Mr. W said. He looked at Chloe again and seemed to
convince himself that she did not have any communicable diseases.That she was the "right kind" of mixed breed. He then strung Took up on a choke chain and let him out of the car.
I should point out here that I Iived on 16 acres of land, much of it
bordering thousands of acres of state land. Chloe is never on a leash
because she does not need to be: (a) she is not a roamer, and (b) she
is, as we have seen, well trained and has perfect recall. For recall, I
use hand signals in addition to verbal cues, and a special whistle she
can hear at great distances. She’s a terrific dog who has earned her
freedom.
Now, Chloe waited for my “okay” command before she said hello to
Took. She play-bowed and he play-bowed back, then he leaped forward for a
romp, only to be yanked back rather cruelly by Mr. W, who had pulled
sharply on the choke collar.
I winced. I hate to see dogs yelping in pain. “Do you want to let
him off-leash and watch them interact?” I said. “We can watch their body
language and signals, to see how Chloe interacts with other dogs.”
“I never let him off-leash,” he said. “He hasn’t been off-leash
since he was six weeks old, straight from the litter. If I let him go,
he’d never come back.”
Do you know that for certain? I wanted to ask.
But I held my tongue.
“Will you let him off leash inside the house?” I asked.
Mr. W answered: “Sure, I think that will be okay.”
I wish I hadn’t asked.
Once we
got inside and Took was released, he began to wreak havoc. First, he
peed on my sofa, then he ran into the kitchen and jumped up on all the
counters, sweeping his snout across in search of food, knocking over
blenders and utensil containers along the way. Finding nothing to eat,
he ran into the bathroom, tipping over my little metal trashcan and digging around for used tissues. Meanwhile, Chloe followed Took with
a rather perplexed look on her face, as if to say: we don’t do that
around here.
Mr. W was aghast. “Took, Took!” he
shouted. “No! No!” He finally seized Took by the collar, pulled
the chain until the dog choked, and then snapped on the leash.
He’s a show dog, I thought.
“I’m sorry,” Mr. W said with a
laugh. “He’s never done this before.”
“Would you like to see the rest of
the house?” I said, remaining polite.
I gave him a tour, showing him where
the dogs would sleep (two dog beds in my bedroom), and pointing our
various rooms and amenities. I showed him the sun room, where Chloe
liked to hang out during the day, watching squirrels though the
window as I wrote, shifting her body positions so that she was always
lying in a patch of sun. I showed him the finished basement—another
spot Chloe liked to visit if it were particularly hot outside, or
stormy. “She has free reign of the house,” I said. “Whether I
am here or not.”
Then we heard a crash—Took, in the
boiler room, tipping over boxes, one of which contained antique tea cups. Chloe lifted her ears and looked at me with an air of concern. I swear she rolled her eyes.
“Why don’t we sit in the living
room and chat?” I said.
Chloe, upon hearing this, trotted into
the living room and seated herself on her “special spot”—one
corner of a long sofa that I had bequeathed to her. It was covered
with a thick throw rug to protect the sofa cushions from her fur.
“So you let your dogs on the
furniture?” Mr. W. asked, bringing out his notepad.
“Just that one spot. She’s trained
to stay off everything else except that rug.” I placed a tea tray
on the coffee table as I spoke: Earl Grey and cookies. “When we go
to friend’s houses or hotels or whatnot, she knows not to go on the
furniture.”
“Impressive,” he said.
Meanwhile, Took leaped onto the coffee
table, spilling tea right onto the sofa I had worked so hard to
protect.
“I think I’ll put him in the car,”
Mr. W said.
Back outside, I
showed Mr. W the property. As we walked with Chloe across the meadows
and around the pond, I pointed out stone walls in the distance that
marked the borders, and the mountain that loomed behind us — the
beginnings of the great Catskill Park.
“Chloe is boundary trained,” I said. Mr. W had never heard of this,
so I explained that I had spent many hours taking Chloe along the
property’s perimeter, which I’d marked with light-colored flags on
various trees, and used a clicker to teach her that she was not to
wander beyond those barriers. “It was time consuming, but it was worth
it.”
“My dog could never be trained like that,” he said. I wanted to say,
With a clicker, you can do anything, but I held back out of respect for
his point of view. I had to respect his beliefs, and he
believed his dog would “never” come back and “never” be
trainable.
I showed him Chloe’s various skills, cueing her with a mix of hand
signals, verbal cues, eye movements, whistles and clicks. It felt like a
circus act, but she seemed very pleased with herself, and happy to
entertain our guests. When I told her to “run to the pond,” she ran to the pond, which was
quite a distance away. Then I shouted “Come” and blew the whistle, and
Chloe returned, bounding happily across the grass, ears flapping.
Mr. W was impressed. He petted Chloe and praised her when she
returned. “What a good dog!” he said. “I never knew dogs could do such
things.” Chloe beamed with pride. She seemed to feel--as did I--that Mr. W would certainly approve us as puppy adopters.
Then the issue of the fenced-in yard came up. I had a pool, which
was fenced, but both of us knew that didn’t really count. I was banking
on the fact that this particular rescue group made exceptions to the
fence rule for the right candidates.
“Chloe loves to swim,” I said, pushing through the gate into the pool area. “She does laps.”
“Technically, we require six-foot fences,” Mr. W said, looking
around, “and I worry about this pool.” Then he turned to me and smiled.
“But I think you’re a good candidate. I’ll put in a positive
recommendation.”
I was so happy that I hugged him. Chloe, sensing the mood, threw
herself on her back and waved her legs in the air. We talked a bit more
about bird dogs in general and Setters in particular, and then discussed
the logistics of the adoption process. “I submit a report of my home
visit,” he said, “and then the board meets to decide.”
All in all, I felt that this home visit had been a pleasant
experience, and a successful one. As we parted ways Mr. W emphasized
that Chloe seemed to have a good life here.
So imagine my shock when, a few days later, I received an email
notifying me that I had been rejected. The reason? Lack of a fenced-in
yard. And more: boundary training. “We cannot give our dogs to people
who boundary train,” I was told.
I was crestfallen. Rejection never feels good in any situation, but
this felt like an emotional, even personal, blow. Sometimes we come across certain dogs
that we know are meant to be with us—we know it in our
hearts that our paths were destined to cross—and yet bureaucracy
gets in the way.
Soon my sorrow was replaced by anger
and indignance. I complained to my off-leash friends, to my rescue
friends, to my dog-writer friends, and we all had choice things to
say about this rescue group’s decision. I am not usually a
back-stabber but it helped to let off some steam.
“And why did the rescue ground send
a representative who wouldn’t recognize a well-trained dog if she
stood before him and danced the can-can?” one friend complained at the dog
park
“Or if she peed on command on his
leg,” a friend chimed in.
“Exactly!”
“And don’t get me started on
fenced-in yards,” another friend said. She actually runs a shelter
in Queens. “Yes, yards are handy, especially if you have a dog
door, but I just can’t see how access to twelve square feet of
much-shit-upon grass, surrounded by a fence so high you can’t see
above or beyond it, constitutes a better quality of life for a dog.
According to behaviorists, dogs experience boredom and boundary
frustration. It can be stressful.”
“And the dogs don’t get
socialized.”
“Exactly.”
After a few days of immature
complaining, I finally had to settle into the truth that I would not
be granted a dog. I like to think that I have a rational mind, and I
always take care to see both sides of the story. Thus, I began to
remind myself that the people who work at these rescue groups are
well meaning. That’s an understatement. They volunteer their time
and efforts and hearts all for the sake of rescuing and rehoming
dogs. They have witnessed cases of intolerable neglect and abuse.
They have seen dogs die at the hands of humans. They have rescued dogs who
were emaciated, or broken-spirited, or simply confused at being
separated from people who didn’t care enough to keep them.
Bird dogs are often relinquished, by
the way, because they aren’t birdy enough, or they shy away from
guns, or don’t respond to those awful shock collars those hunters
often use. Bird dogs are often found as strays because, yes, they do
run away and they can jump fences.
But anyway, all this is to say that I
can recognize a rescue group’s needs to be stringent. People can be
cruel. I often find that many rescue workers have lost their faith in
the human race, because they have simply seen too many horrors. So
they have to err on the side of caution.
But what exactly is the fine line
between error and caution?
Back to the fenced-in-yard debate. The
pro-fencers argue that dogs are safer enclosed in high fences, and
that’s a considerable point. But in this world, as we know, safety
is not an absolute guarantee. Even the fenced-in dog can be stolen,
poisoned by a toad, strung up on his chain, etc. In life, there are
no absolutes, period. Does that mean we should not take risks?
When I first adopted Chloe, I knew the
possibility was high that she would be a birdy-bird dog with a strong
prey drive and no training. I was willing to take that risk. I also
took the proper precautions. In our first few months together, I did
not let her off leash in unenclosed spaces. I brought her every day
to an enormous fenced-in dog run at Fort Tryon Park in New York City,
and there taught her the rudiments of recall. Then I took her to an
even larger park—an abandoned fenced-in soccer field underneath the
George Washington Bridge. I won’t take you step-by-step through her
training: suffice to say that I supervised my dog and continue to do
so to this day.
I would have done the same thing with
Trinley. And if it came to pass that he still roamed beyond my
comfort zone, I would have restricted his activity more. He’d still
have had Chloe to keep him entertained and exercised. And she would
have kept him in line, too. We all know that older dogs can teach the
younger dogs new tricks, and remind them of certain household rules.
I still think Chloe would have been a model mother.
But I must say that my dreams of
adopting a second dog are finished for the time being. That rejection
from that rescue group was stinging enough—and demoralizing
enough—for me to give up the quest for a very long time.
Why not try another rescue group,
you say?
Why not spend thousands of dollars
to fence in the property?
Why not consider another type of
dog—a lap dog, for instance, that wouldn’t be fast enough to run
away?
I can’t explain....I wanted Trinley.
And then someone came to my house and told me I wasn’t good enough.
Maybe part of me believed them.
That was six years ago. Chloe is an old
dog now, beginning to limp with signs of arthritis, and no longer all
that patient with exuberant dogs—especially pups. She has also
become—forgive the pun—quite the bitch, and doesn’t necessarily
want to share her space with anyone else but me.
Sometimes I still think about Trinley,
with great pangs of regret, but I am sure he found a home. Puppies
always do. But I cannot help but wonder how things would have been. I
especially wonder this on the days when I do have to leave Chloe
alone on those rare occasions where I need to go down to the city for
the day, to make music or teach class. She looks at me with her sweet
and tender face, and I start to worry that she'll be lonely. “I’m
sorry,” I tell her. “Sometimes I have to go out.” She seems to understand and, being an older dog, seems to enjoy the extra-long snooze her time alone allows.
Being older and wiser (we hope) I know that everything always works out for the best. So I hold no grudges against Mr. W or that particular rescue group. But the question of where to draw the line with potential adopters is an interesting debate.....
Your thoughts?
